Quarantine Fatigue

It has been over 2 months since the nationwide lockdown began and just last week, many restrictions in Maharashtra were lifted. Now industries, private offices, and a lot of non-essesntial businesses are opened. Monitoring of these things is very difficult as no one can know where the virus is, but we’re past that, free movement has been allowed in some areas.

In the past two months, people have been sitting in their homes watching TV, studying, reading, doing something productive. But some like me, couldn’t find their way into what to do, what to learn. The state of lazy confusion where I get tired by starting anything and get easily distracted, where I cannot end a single thing I began, whether it be studying, reading, writing a post on Medium.

The lockdown has caused a state of mind so dull, we are not ready for anything else. Of course not everyone, some people are working out in their homes, terraces, and whatnot, some are playing games all-day. But I am confused. I do not know what to do. I know what I should do, which is, prepare for my entrance exams, watch some online tutorials about anything interesting, whatever it is, I cannot get my mind to focus on it.

This weird laziness and fatigue of sitting home all day doing nothing, settling for nothing, just being in a state of mind-boggling ‘what-to-dos’. I feel bad sometimes, but I’m tired of even that. I do not have an MO to actually make better use of myself. My board exams are over, I am only waiting for the specific days to come, where I can actually perform and waiting for things to get back to normal so everyone can go to their workplaces, schools, and colleges.

Fatigue makes fools of all of us. It robs us of our skills, our judgment and blinds us to creative solutions. -Harvey Mackay

I am writing this piece just to do something, might sound weird but, choices are a difficult thing for a lazy person. Boredom is hell. Distraction is the devil. Activity is purgatory. Activeness is god and an active state of mind is heaven.